Recently I've been feeling a little out of place, unorganised, anxious, restless, tired and just not myself. I find it hard to talk to people about the way I'm feeling and I often let it build up so much inside that I can often burst out in to tears, and it's always a little unexpected for the person on the receiving end (that's usually Josh). I'm one of those people who bottles emotion up inside and I find it easy to pretend that everything is okay because why shouldn't everything be okay? I have amazing friends, the best family and of course a loving and supportive boyfriend. I'm one of those people who's afraid of upsetting anyone but never one to think so much about how I'm actually feeling or how someone has upset me, do you get me? I feel like I'm waffling but here I am. I've struggled this past week, both mentally and physically. I just feel so drained and even though I know I shouldn't be feeling like this, I am.