Where I Long To Be and Why I’m Not Ready To Settle Down

The tallest piece of rock I have ever jumped off in my life and it's for sure that I will never be doing anything that high again.

I'm 23 and Josh is 27, we bought our first property last year where we currently live with my Gran and we had hoped to be looking at buying our own place in the very near future. However, since I returned from Santorini I've had butterflies in my stomach. Not because I want to return to the beautiful idyllic island but because I realised how much there is out there that I want to see for myself. I'm not sure I want to settle down right now and this is a conversation we keep going over and over, back and forth. I get it, he wants a sense of security, our own space, somewhere that's ours but with that comes a hell of a lot of responsibility, bills, cut backs, less of a social life and I guess some would call it 'the real world'. I have endless conversations with people at work and they tell me just to go travelling but of course you need money for that and if we ever returned (not that I'd plan on it), we'd be in the same position we are in now so would it really be worthwhile going? The idea of travelling and buying a house plays on my mind constantly. One day I can't wait to have my own space, an actual wardrobe, my very own pet dog, cooking dinner for friends etc. etc. and then the next day all I can think about is driving around on a motorbike with salty hair, eating street food, stroking stray dogs, not worrying about what time you have to get up for work because you need money so desperately to have a life but just having enough money to get by and live. I feel as though there is SO much pressure on us "kids" to settle down, get married, start a family, have a proper job and know what you want in life. The world has changed in so many ways, everything is so much more accessible and you could argue that's a bad thing but it makes that traditional mind set of settling down so hard to just accept. I'm sick of having to work to earn just enough to cover a roof over my head, to only go away and see the world once or twice a year. Why this is the norm I have no idea! Life isn't about making as much money as you can and coming home to watch Emmerdale. It's about so much more and I'm so ready to pack my bags and leave this way of life behind - just need enough money first, lol. The only thing that scares me about ever emigrating would be that I could never afford to return home to see my Gran. Sorry for the rant but I've had it playing on my mind for f*cking ages and I'd really appreciate your views on this situation or any interesting stories, regrets, bad/good decisions.... Lots of love, L.

My Favourite Skincare Products


If you haven't seen me constantly moan about the way my skin has been the past couple of years then where have you been? I don't know what happened but ever since I left college and began adult life, my skin has been an absolute nightmare. Two years ago I suffered with really bad eczema around my mouth and it took almost a year to get it cleared up. I used various products and steroid creams that the Dr prescribed but nothing seemed to shift it and most of the time it made it flair up even more. I also had really bad pimples all over my chin, which were disgusting and was a really low point for me. I'd stare at myself in my magnified mirror and pop them all, making the situation 100 times worse but hey, nothin' like squeezing a spot is there?!

For me, having beautiful skin is a huge confidence booster. I would love not to wear make up and add only a little bronzer, eyebrow gel and maybe a touch of highlight for work but at the moment I'm still getting small bumps, particularly on the right hand side of my face which is a little weird. I've managed to control it a lot and I think the key to that is drinking more water, removing make up and allowing your skin to breathe. I'm forever trying out different products in hopes that one day I find the one but there are so many factors that count towards healthy, glowing, spot-free skin. So here are my favourite skincare products at the moment, tried and tested by moi.

Garnier rose water toner

Every morning before applying my make up and every evening before showering to remove my make up. I love this stuff. It makes my face feel so clean and I love the smell of it. Plus, I think it's half price at the moment too!

Mario Badescu facial spray

Again, I use this product morning and night. Before applying my make up for the day but after using the Garnier rose water toner and again in the evening after my shower. I'm on my 2nd bottle which I bought in Liberty's back in December, it lasts a long time and is so refreshing! You can also use it after applying make up too to help set it.

Nuxe lip balm

This goes everywhere and anywhere with me. Honestly, I don't think I'd have been able to survive without this stuff the past year or so. It has been a god send! Where I work has dried my skin out massively, which I think started my eczema off. It's only a small tub but it lasts forever, you only need the smallest amount on your finger and it seems to last most of the day.

Bio oil

You're probably wondering why this is on the list but I swear by this little bottle. I apply it every now and again, maybe three times a week to my face. I have a few scares from spots I have picked, squeezed, play with... all the things you do with spots you shouldn't and this bio oil has helped reduce the scaring on my face by a hell of a lot. I love it and this is another products that smells bloody divine!

Body Shop tea tree facial wash

My friend bought me this for my birthday and I've only recently started using it in the shower after scrubbing with my St Ives. I love the smell of tea tree although I know many people don't like the smell. To me, it screams clean and I love the tingling sensation I get on my cheeks when I rub it in but just be careful not to get it in your eye because trust me it stings.

St Ives pink lemon and mandarin orange scrub

I have tried every single St Ives scrub and although I love every one in a different way, the pink lemon and mandarin one is a firm favourite. It has the right amount of grittiness to it, so it's a little more gentle than the apricot scrub (although I do like to use this one every now and again when I feel as though my skin needs an extra cleanse) and the smell is be-au-tiful! I use this almost every day as it's perfect for daily use.

This Week


Hey there! How are ya? Thought I'd check in here seeing as though it's been a short while. Not long now until we go away, well 9 days but still.. I have so much to do but I don't think I have everything yet. I've been prepping myself so I've been on the sun beds twice already and I think I will go another two times before we fly on Friday evening. My brother is currently lying on our sofa, he can't walk from an injury at football so I will drive him home soon and take him to the doctor's tomorrow.. Josh has only just recovered from his injury that happened at football this weekend too! I don't think they were built for that sport, maybe they should take up boules or something, haha! Last night we watched 'me before you' and it was brilliant. I haven't watched a good tear jerker like that one for a while and now I want to see the sequel to it, 'after you' but it isn't on Netflix yet 🙁 The plan for tomorrow is to focus on our design's for Meesoon and get the ball rolling for that and then pack a suitcase, gym, snack, you know, the usual! Speak again soon, L.

Leeds Bound


Throwback to Christmas Eve with my bestie <3

Morning loves! How have you been lately? Today I'm going to Leeds to spend the night with my best friend, Bethany! She moved there with her boyfriend, Eddy after finishing university. I think I've only been to Leeds once when I was really young but I don't remember it much, so I'm excited to spend the day eating and drinking! 🙂 It is SO cold here, again! Just when I thought that Spring had finally arrived, it was all a lie! So I have my thermal on, with a turtle neck and I'm going to wear my blanket scarf to stay warm because I'm catching the train from Dent which is in the middle of nowhere and Josh has to drop me off early so he can get to football in time and I'm not sure they have a waiting room?! I really hope so though! Anyway, enjoy your Easter weekend, hope it's a good one! Love, L.

We Speak More Than Ever




I don't live with my parents so usually when we are at home I don't see them or speak to them very often. Now that they are in Thailand I think I've spoken more to my brother than I have done all year, haha! I like that the two of us are close, even though he annoys the hell out of me most of the time. We Facetimed around an hour ago and they were on Khao San Road eating Pad Thai, one of my favourite dishes to eat whilst I'm out there because quite frankly, nowhere does it better than those street vendors. Although, Wagamama's does a pretty delicious one but it's still just not the same. One thing I'd recommend to do in Thailand if anything at all is to eat the street food and eat as the locals would. We never eat in restaurants unless we fancy a McDonald's or another fast food chain, however that's something I'm trying to steer away from this year. Most of the time we buy our food from the local markets and it doesn't cost very much at all, in fact you could eat a pretty decent meal for around 150 baht, that's about £3, amazing right?! Anyway, enough on Thailand because I feel like I'm turning green with envy... Today I had an early finish and since then I've pretty much done naff all so I'm going to get off my bottom and gym for an hour, then tonight all I want to do is have a bath and relax because the clocks go forward tonight which means one less hour in bed 🙁 Love, L.


Date Night at Home


Throwback to our trip to London in December 🙂

I thought I'd come over and check in with you guys. Josh is still working so I'm sat watching Emmerdale, haha! We have the house to ourselves tonight so I'm going to cook tea for the two of us. It feels like so long ago since we enjoyed an evening together, just the two of us. I bought an M&S dine in because I've been working all day and it's easy to just throw in the oven, plus it's always so tasty! I thought I'd write a little list and I saw this one over on www.emitaz.com and thought I'd answer them too! So, here goes...


1. Last thing you bought?

Some fruit cider because we are both loving drinking that at the moment.

2. What you usually get compliments for?

My smile and my hair.

3. Name of your first pet?

She was called Susie and she was a grey cat 🙂

4. What do you like to eat when you’re feeling down?

Something warm and stodgy, like cheesy mash potato or grilled cheese and tomatoes on toast! Mmm...

5. Whats the plans for this summer?

To kick the Summer off we are heading to Greece for a week which I am SO excited for. Other than that we don't have anything else planned but I guess it will just involve lots of walking, wild camping and exploring a bit more of the Lake District.

6. What is the weirdest thing you’ve eaten?

Umm, my mum has probably fed me all sorts over the years but I tried some fried insects once in Thailand and I would probably eat them again.

7. What does your morning routine look like?

Wake up around 7/7:30, check my phone, brush my teeth and wash my face, gym for an hour, have breakfast and then have a Thai lesson for an hour.

8. Your favourite tv serie?

Definitely Power! Can't wait to have it back on my screen.

9. Something that your thankful for?

I'm very thankful for my health and having my close family around me.

10. Best feeling?

That feeling of success, that you've achieved something really great. And being able to share it with your loved ones.

11. What does it say in your last recieved text?

"He can't come after Monday" - Josh.

12. Something you miss at the moment?

My family in Thailand, as always. I facetimed my Mum and Thai Granny the other morning and I just want to give her a squeeze.

13. What do you like to do when you have free time?

Blog, eat, gym, go hiking and take photographs.

14. What did you want to work with when you were younger?

I always wanted to be an air hostess and I did apply for Emirates a few years ago but couldn't because of my tattoos 🙁 now I think I'd love to be an interior designer or just have my own design business.

15. Name 4 jobs you’ve had:

Waitress, barmaid, florist and an apprentice in pattern cutting.

16. What are you going to do after this list?

Probably light the oven ready for dinner and pour myself a glass of red wine.



My little (big) brother, Alex. 


Morning! I've just got back from the dentist and dropping my dad and brother off at the station. It's that time of year again, where they go to Thailand for a month. Ah, I remember this time last year I had to hold it in that we were actually going to be joining them, haha! But this time, we won't be and it was hard to hold my emotions in as I waved them goodbye at the station. I hate goodbyes, I've never been good at them. I get this huge lump in my throat and my eyes fill up with tears but thankfully I didn't embarrass myself this time and instead I shed a little one in the car... on my own! What is wrong with me?! Anyway, my appointment at the dentist went smoothly and I really enjoy seeing my dentist because we always have a good chat, once she's finished prodding around my mouth. Today I'm working on a project Josh and myself have set for the year but more on that soon! I'm catching up with Made in Chelsea with a cup of lemon, ginger and honey tea which I think has been my absolute saviour over the Winter, along with covering my nose and chest with Vicks before bed. And *touch wood* still haven't had a cold yet! Speak soon, L.

Getting Sorted


Well, my wish of Spring arriving sooner rather than later never happened and it's still snowing outside.. We had to cancel our plans last night as all roads leading in and out of Sedbergh were too dangerous so we had to stay home and cook for ourselves, even though we were so looking forward to meeting our friends and having some good pub food. I had planned on visiting 'The Little Ice Cream Shop' in Hawkshead today and going for a bit of a drive around the Lakes in our new car but obviously because of the weather that didn't happen so we decided to get sorted with our finances, get some bills paid, etc. etc. You know, all the boring stuff we always put aside! But I'm glad we've done it now because I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders! We have a year left of paying the flat off, so around this time next year we will *hopefully* be looking at buying our own house which I am SO looking forward to but it just seems like a lifetime away! I can't wait to have a bit more independence, although I'm not sure how well I will cope with all the cooking, cleaning and ironing, haha! Speak again soon, L.

Tuesday List


Hey loves! How are you? Today is glorious and I feel so good lately even though I think I could've done with a couple more hours in bed this morning. I had another lesson with Angela this morning which I think is around my 10th lesson and I still feel like it's not going into my brain, agh! Mum went to Thailand on Saturday to spend some time with my Thai granny (her mum), Sangwan so that's why I'm sharing two photos from our trip to Bangkok last year. I miss it so much! Hopefully one day we have enough money to have a holiday home out there or even just go out there to live forever.. haha! Can't believe how fast it has come around, it only feels like yesterday when we flew out there to surprise my brother. You can rewatch the vlog from that here, but beware it's very cringy and I can't believe how I awful I look! 🙁 love, L.

How are you feeling today?

Happy, cosy and determined I guess.


Best thing to happen this week?

Well, it's still kind of early in the week... but I'm still super excited to wake up and see my new car outside, haha! I think it's going to take some time for the excitement to wear off!


What are you looking forward to?

Feeling very excited to visit Romania in 59 days and stay with two friends and Greece in 107 days which I am so keen for because I need some sunshine! But I'm also going to see my best friend in Leeds for the weekend at the end of the month so I'm looking forward to seeing her too and her new home!


Any plans for the weekend?

We have plans to have food and drinks for Josh's friends birthday on Saturday night and then not sure what Sunday will look like! Maybe I will vlog because I failed with last months attempt, oops.


New Car


Hey! Bit of a late one here but it's been a short while so here I am. Feeling uninspired with my blog at the moment, what I'm wearing and I've felt as though I've been too busy to come say hi, so hey! Today has been a good day 🙂 We got our new car yesterday evening after having a bit of trouble with my Mini. It's been a long time coming and it's finally packed itself in which is sad times but also very happy times because I get to drive around in this little beauty! I love mean cars and obviously something with a bit of kick really gets me going, haha! We decided to get a 'joint' car so we got something a little nicer than I ever expected - the Golf GTD in Carbon Grey. I've been driving around today and it's so nippy but feels so much bigger than my last car! It feels like a family car! I got myself to the gym at 7:30 this morning, wow, who even am I? I had my Thai lesson in the morning with Angela and learnt time and days of the week, which was a lot harder than I expected actually! And I even managed to get to the swimming pool for an hour before bed 🙂 I feel so good at the moment in myself, not felt like this in a very long time so I hope it lasts! Speak again soon loves, L.

I’ve Been Slacking


A very blurry polaroid from our snow day last Wednesday.


Hey guys! How are you? I haven't posted since last week, I've felt like I haven't had too much to say and life isn't so exciting at the moment but I'm in a very happy and content place at the moment. This weekend we stayed pretty much indoors and decided that exploring the mountains was off the cards after the freezing temperatures we have had here! Every time I post on here , all I seem to talk about is the weather, haha! Very British of me, I apologise. We have our new car ready at the end of the week which I'm obviously very excited about but I'm so sad to be saying goodbye to my first car I've had for 4 whole years! I remember being so excited to be able to go wherever I wanted, whenever I wanted. Driving so fast down country lanes, making pointless journeys over to Kendal for a McDonald's or a trip to Asda just so I could go out driving with my friends. I kind of miss being a carefree teenager! Now, all I seem to do is work and look forward to my next week off. Surely that isn't what life is about? Speak soon, L.



Stickle Tarn, 21.02.18

Evening! I'm already curled up in bed, with the fairy lights on, a hot water bottle and an extra blanket on the bed because I am SO cold. This next week isn't going to be any warmer either with snow and ice expected, agh! Just when I thought Spring was well on it's way... This is my favourite photo from our week, just the two of us together, eating bacon butties and sipping hot chocolate, watching the sun disappear behind the snow capped mountains. Could I really wish for anything more? I feel so lucky. It was nice to just be at peace, away from technology, social media, television, the indoors and really just make the most of what we have around us. I wish I could escape a little more often... What's your perfect escape? L.